A friend {ever so wisely} recently reminded me that God wouldn’t give me more than I can handle. She also mentioned that she’s pretty sure I’m close to my limit … true dat! :)
I hate that my spirit is sagging.
I hate that I can’t seem to lift above it.
I hate that I’m feeling this way and complaining when I should be gearing up to celebrate our Savior’s birth {and some presents too!}.
I hate that the kids are off of school now, and I’m having to go into work. I said my “good-bye’s and Merry Christmases” on Thursday, with every intention of fully immersing myself into my kids lives {while finishing up with wrapping, etc. when I could}.
I hate that I still have myself and 3 kids to pack {but thankful I’m blessed to be going on vacation and thank God Taylor packs herself!}.
I hate that I have a zillion web orders coming into the store {how sad is that?} because I don’t want to have to go into the store right now.
I hate that I have to ask my mom to come over and watch the girls and that I can’t be with them myself.
I hate that I’ll most likely be working Christmas Eve too.
I hate that I had to go back to work tonight and just got home.
I hate that things are in such disarray at work.
I hate that I’m hating so many things.
I want a joyful spirit. I want a holiday spirit. I want a restful spirit.
I hate that I’m saying “I want.”
Okay, so back to apparently how much the Lord thinks I can handle. So the store had a mention in Real Simple magazine … awesome right? It should be … totally. Except that, we weren’t prepared for the outpouring of love the product would receive. And that the store’s product manager is gearing up for vacation. And I was planning on being home with the kids.
When I saw the web orders flying in last weekend {71 orders! a normal busy weekend is around 30ish}, I quickly sent a note to LobotoME to see if she could ship things out right away on Monday. Sure, no problem … except she wasn’t planning on a snowstorm in Denver. And I wasn’t planning on a snowstorm here.
So here’s the stress overload today:
1. I had to go to work.
2. Things pretty unorganized, but I can’t stay to help because we have a program at Curt’s work to be at.
3. After being home a short time {after the program}, I realize chaos is the state of bwp and I’ll need to go back into work that evening.
4. I desperately want to go to dinner and a movie with Curt and the girls … so I know it’s going to be way late before I can get to the store.
5. I order chicken fajitas at dinner, and receive chicken quesadillas.
6. Get a call as the movie starts that the LobotoME order is lost. UPS is really surprised, as the woman has never heard of this happening before. But there I am with unfulfilled web orders up the wazoo and a lost shipment.
7. This is really awesome … are you ready? I dropped my iphone in the itoilet and now it’s inop!
8. Lastly … the car’s out of gas.
I’m in the car {clocked over 2 hours of driving today} and trying to get into a worshipful, praiseful spirit. Let it all go … let the Lord take care of it. And the midst of the crease in my brow getting so deep it hurts … the Lord gave me peace. He promised he will take care of it.
Over and over … I’d start thinking about this and that, and he would say, “I’ll take care of you.”
What an awesome God. I thank you Lord for reminding me that you’re there. You haven’t forgotten me. You will take care of me and you’ll never give me more than I can handle. One question though … will my tank be full tomorrow morning? :)
Heather, I love you more than words … thank you for also ‘saving’ me tonight. You are a blessing my friend.
I'm so sorry Tracie to have caused stress…I know it doesn't matter that this hasn't happened before and it wasn't my fault but I still feel terrible!
I hope there is a {lesson} in this for both of us (perhaps letting go of the things we can't control) and I hope that in January we can {laugh} about the irony of Real Simple Magazine causing our lives to be chaotic and not simple at a time of year we crave peace and simplicity.
Happy Holidays to you & yours ~~
jenny
SEE! The Lord did answer your prayers! It makes ME think I need to go to church sometime. :)